Pain and Pleasure


Judas Priest's penchant for ostentation was not stifled last night at the Hisense Arena; the band was surrounded by huge black and red draconian sets, watched over by a canvas Nostradamus with glowing red eyes who saw Rob Halford elevated into the stadium, clad in flowing suits of leather and studs. (He even was wheeled out on a motorcycle during the encore, not forgetting his trademark moves.) They shied away from newer material (opening with Nostradamus), electing the "Maiden" method of playing crowd favorites from their golden era, less talking and more rocking. Though wearied by age, there was no denying their energy to keep their unique brand of heavy metal mania alive. If there's one thing to be said about Judas Priest, is that they've always been the sensuous metal band - while Maiden can be very rocking and inspiring, they can sometimes feel distant and over-intellectual - Halford and co. really know how to get under your skin and run a gamut of emotion.

Strangely, later on while riding the train home, a short, sandy blonde middle-aged yet well-drunk woman who had devolved into child-like inquisitiveness launched into a incessant inquiry of anything and everything, asking some rather inane questions of some bemused metalheads.

"Does your t-shirt have France on it?"
The not-too-friendly rivethead sporting a clean shaven head save for a mohawk and long, braided pony-tail laughed and shook his head in amusement.
"What?" he exclaimed. "Who cares? It's irrelevant, etc." His mates couldn't help but quietly piss themselves laughing.
She asked if one of his mates could have a look for her. He declined. She began to pout, while being scolded by her husband. "But I'm just being friendly! I just wanted to know." she protested.

A fellow witness to this ridiculous display sitting across from me rolled his eyes and shook his head. I agreed. Wearing a faded leather jacket and a mustache like steel-wool I asked whether he had been to Judas Priest as well. He said he hadn't, but just as he opened his mouth, Ms. Inquisitive started up another one of her tantrum-like rants when he said "Women are like beings from another planet." She asked us what we were talking about. I told her, in no uncertain terms. She shut up. I also had to inform her that Amsterdam was a city, not a country. My new mate reminisced about his time there; "It's a great place. I can always remember arriving there but never remembering how I got home." A further stimulation of my wanderlust.

What was he doing tonight? "Went to see a lady friend," he says reservedly, while heaving a sigh. "She's very, very highly strung. She kicked me out." What for? "She wanted me to show a pic that flashed up on my phone. I said she wouldn't like it, I relented, she saw it and the told me to piss off." He was clutching a motorcycle helmet too; "I have to go get it in the morning." Fuck that, I thought. "I know," he continued, "my mates think I'm mad. I have about a 25% hit rate with her." My face was obviously in disbelief. "Well, having that said, she is very, very, entertaining." She must be if she's only letting you in for entertainment 1 in 4 times. "I know I'm stupid. But entertainment like that only comes around once in a lifetime." I said he was crazy, but he insisted "If you knew what I knew, you'd do it too." True enough; men are dumb creatures. Luckily enough for me, I don't have to date them.

A Note on my GS Studies

As the two or three followers of my blog are aware, I have immersed myself in the studies of General Semantics this year. I believe I have progressed to such a point that I GS has changed my patterns and "way" I think to such an extent that my behavior has become more rational as a result.

As some of you already know, the territory (reality, etc.) is merely a space in which we project our beliefs and base our semantic reactions.

Therefore, my inference that an acquaintance of mine stopped dead in their tracks to avoid me due to fear, hatred or courtesy is as unverifiable as the inferences that they may make about me. However, to my advantage, my time-binding ability and my consciousness and the separation of first- and second-order functions makes the distinction between belief and fact, report and inference. I shall never know for a "fact" whether their behavior was from any of the reasons stated above, as they may not even know themselves or "know themselves."

From my own observations, I believe that my inferences "analyze" rather than "deceive"; that I would now rather use them deconstruct games and refrain from playing them; to find choice where others find a zero-sum defeat; to view failure as feedback; to feel that a prize and its attainment is for a rational purpose, well within the purview of second-order logic instead of first-order "infantile" stupidity.

Sure, Ellis and Korzybski and their followers teach us to "unconditionally accept" people as organisms as a whole in their environments, but allow ourselves to disagree with their actions and beliefs, if it so comes into conflict. Some people believe (or, rather, I believe they believe) that my ranting and raving is the result of a mind in disequilibrium, out of touch with "reality."

In actuality, it serves as an outlet for my thoughts and feelings, allowing my sometimes dormant creativity and critical analysis to take flight.

In recent months, I have begun to accept the way I am, and in doing so, I am able to lead a much more involving and rewarding life as result. To improve myself - from whatever conception I deem appropriate - is a set of goals I desire to attain; but it does not constitute an absolute necessity, causing grief or self-loathing if I do not achieve them to my satisfaction and within a reasonable time-frame. When one thinks about it, once the need for oxygen, food and other such requirements are met, most things "are not" needs after all.

Before the end of this year is through, I seek to submit an article to ETC., the General Semantics scholarly journal, as a tribute to the teachings of Korzybski, his contemporaries and to his legacy. I doubt any such intellectual contribution that I have ever encountered has given me so much when "it" asks so little in return.